Feeling

I’m feeling excited and a bit overwhelmed because school starts tomorrow. I feel excited because it’s a new school year with lots of possibilities, and I feel overwhelmed because I don’t quite feel ready for the first day.

Blogging

This week on the blog:

• Bout of Books 35 Progress
• Top Ten Tuesday #31
• Let’s Talk Bookish #1

Reading

Despite signing up and participating in Bout of Books this week, I haven’t read much. I started LINES OF COURAGE by Jennifer A Nielsen, but I only got to page 160. I did do a lot of researching WWI, though, because of Nielsen’s book.

I don’t know if I’ll get much reading done this week either because of school. I’m going to try, though.

Listening

I’ve been listening to my Faves playlist while running errands and being in the car. The song that stuck out to me the most this week is “Handclap” by Fitz and the Tantrums. I like to clap my hands against the steering wheel while I sing along to this song.

Watching

Corey and I watched various movies this week. Most of them were unmemorable. We got a new TV and it’s big enough for Corey to read subtitles (finally), so we watched EVERYTHING EVERYWHERE ALL AT ONCE. It was amazing!

We also watched the first episode of SHE-HULK: ATTORNEY AT LAW. First off, it was really funny. Second, I love that View Spoiler »Bruce helped Jen « Hide Spoiler using Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT). My therapist and I had a good laugh about it. I told him, “I’m a hulk. Okay.” His response to me was, “I thought I might say that it is empirically supported for BPD [Borderline Personality Disorder] and gamma radiation poisoning. ” I laughed a lot.

Loving

I went to PetSmart this week to get Izzy some litter. I decided to stop by the cats for adoption. There was a 3-month old female named Binks and I immediately fell in love with her. I tried to convince Corey that we should adopt her, but he’s not ready yet. I don’t blame him one bit. I miss Dax so much, and I know Izzy needs a friend. We can wait, though.

Wanting

I want to dye my hair purple again. I’m not sure when I’ll be able to. Hopefully, soon.

Needing

I started PTSD therapy last Monday. It’s called PE, which stands for Prolonged Exposure. It works in conjunction with what I learned in DBT. I had a hard time doing my homework this week. I’m anxious about feeling the emotions even though I know it’ll help me in the long run. I know it’s going to get harder before it gets easier. Thankfully, I have the best therapist and I have the skills I learned in DBT to help me. I just need to remember that it’s about progress not perfection.

How was your week? Anything exciting happen?

Feeling

I’m feeling broken-hearted this week. Corey and I said goodbye to our beautiful Daxi cat on Thursday. She crossed the rainbow bridge while in my arms without any euthanasia. She was almost 19 years old.

A couple of weeks ago, we noticed she wasn’t feeling very well. We took her into our new vet (who’s awesome) and they determined she had an infected canine. They took her blood and gave her some antibiotics and pain meds. Because her kidneys showed they were doing well, we scheduled to have her tooth pulled. They wanted to wait a couple of weeks to let the antibiotic take affect so there was less chance of secondary infection during and after the procedure.

On Sunday night, she took a turn for the worse. She stopped eating or drinking. We took her in to the vet on Monday for some fluids and then brought her home. The subcutaneous fluids seemed to help stimulate her want for water and food, and she perked up a bit. On Tuesday night, though, we could tell she was having a hard time. We took her in to the vet on Wednesday, hoping her planned surgery would help her feel better. Unfortunately, when the vet drew more blood to check her kidneys before putting her under, the numbers came back showing her kidneys were shutting down. They tried to flush her kidneys among other things to see if that would help turn things around. This morning, however, it was apparent by her lethargy and bloodwork that it was time to let her go. She waited until we came to say goodbye and then, as I said above, passed away in my arms without any euthanasia.

We’re absolutely devastated and Izzy keeps looking for her. Right now, we’re trying to remember all the memories we have of our beautiful girl and we know her brothers will take good care of her until we see her again.

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Blogging

This week on the blog:

• July Monthly Wrap-up
• Top Ten Tuesday #29
• Bout of Books 35 Signup

Reading

I haven’t read anything this week. I had LASIK surgery on Tuesday and I’ve been trying to rest my eyes while they heal. My surgery went well, and for the next few weeks my eyesight’s going to fluctuate, making it hard to do things like read or work on the computer. Plus, I have to put drops in my eyes every 30 minutes to an hour.

Listening

Because I lost my sweet Daxi cat this week, I’ve been thinking about and listening to a religious hymn often played at funerals in Utah. I thought I’d share it because it brings me peace and I hope it does the same for someone else. Here’s The Tabernacle at Temple Square singing “God be with You ‘Til We Meet Again.”

Watching

I started watching BLOWN AWAY on Netflix this week. I love THE GREAT POTTERY SHOWDOWN on HBO MAX and this is just like it except with blowing glass. Blowing glass has always been something I’m fascinated with so this has been a fun show to watch when my eyes let me.

Loving

I really love my vet. He did everything he could to help our little Daxi cat. Corey and I appreciate all he and his staff did to try to save her and make her feel as comfortable as possible while she was at the vet.

Wanting

I want everyone to know that I’m sorry I still haven’t responded to comments from my Top Ten Tuesday #29 and Bout of Books 35 Signup posts. I may not respond to today’s post either yet. I hope I can start spending more time on the computer this week and I’ll respond to all the comments and go around to everyone else’s blogs them.

Needing

I need to spend time with my Izzy cat to help her during the grieving process.

How was your week? Anything exciting happen?