I shared this on Instagram a few days ago and shared this on my blog pre-new direction. I wanted to share it again because I wrote it during another low-point. It helped helps me remember three very important things: 1) I’m not alone, 2) life has a purpose, and 3) to never give up.

Rising from the Ashes

Why do I keep doing this? 
I am nothing. 
A failure. 
I try and try and try, never following through, never succeeding. 


I’m sucked into the depths of despair. 
I crumple. 
I fall. 
I cry.

I feel nothing. 

I am lost. 
I am drifting in a tide of uncertainties.

I want to be happy. 
I want to be healthy. 
I want more in life.

I am impassioned. 
I am defiant.

I fight back. 
I try again and again and again, until I succeed.

The Refiner’s fire is agonizing. 
But, I wait for the ashes. 
The ashes of rebirth. 
I will rise. 
I will succeed. 
I will be reborn into a phoenix. 

Depression is hard. It’s unbearable at times. On a good day, I feel like I’m running through waist-deep water. On a bad day, I feel like I’m treading water. On a really bad day, I feel like I’m drowning. A year and a half ago, I felt “normal.” I thought I had found the ultimate […]

Hi! I’m Jenni Elyse. I’ve decided to blog about what it’s like to live with mental illness. I know there are many people who live with mental illness like I do. I also know there are many people who don’t. And, I know there are people who think mental illness is something to be ashamed […]