Depression is hard. It’s unbearable at times. On a good day, I feel like I’m running through waist-deep water. On a bad day, I feel like I’m treading water. On a really bad day, I feel like I’m drowning. A year and a half ago, I felt “normal.” I thought I had found the ultimate […]
Hi! I’m Jenni Elyse. I’ve decided to blog about what it’s like to live with mental illness. I know there are many people who live with mental illness like I do. I also know there are many people who don’t. And, I know there are people who think mental illness is something to be ashamed […]
Rising from the Ashes
I shared this on Instagram a few days ago and shared this on my blog pre-new direction. I wanted to share it again because I wrote it during another low-point. It
helpedhelps me remember three very important things: 1) I’m not alone, 2) life has a purpose, and 3) to never give up.Rising from the Ashes
Why?
Why do I keep doing this?
I am nothing.
A failure.
I try and try and try, never following through, never succeeding.
Shame.
Guilt.
Weakness.
Depression.
I’m sucked into the depths of despair.
I crumple.
I fall.
I cry.
I feel nothing.
I am lost.
I am drifting in a tide of uncertainties.
I want to be happy.
I want to be healthy.
I want more in life.
I am impassioned.
I am defiant.
I fight back.
I try again and again and again, until I succeed.
The Refiner’s fire is agonizing.
But, I wait for the ashes.
The ashes of rebirth.
I will rise.
I will succeed.
I will be reborn into a phoenix.