I’m feeling tired. Although I’m over my cold, I haven’t been sleeping very well. With the help of my doctor, I’m weaning myself off a problematic med that’s for depression. One of its main side effects is drowsiness so doctors often prescribe it to patients with a history of depression and sleeping difficulties. I’d stay on it if it didn’t make me so sleepy. I have a hard time getting out of bed before 11:00am most mornings because of the med.
Blogging
I had another really good blogging week.Here’s what I posted this week:
I’ll finish rereading THE STAR SCROLL by Melanie Rawn today. It’s even better than I remember. I’ve also listened to a couple of hours of THE BALLAD OF SONGBIRDS AND SNAKES audiobook.
Listening
Corey grew up on 60s and 70s rock so that’s what he listens to unless he’s in the mood for something more recent. Without fail, “Fortunate Son” by Creedence Clearwater Revival comes on every single time we get in the car. Things could be worse. At least it’s a good song.
Watching
Corey and I are in that bingeless state you get in after finishing a mind-blowing show. We’re currently trying to decide what to watch next.
We’ve been rewatching a few of our favorite shows, like BLUEY. (Yes, we watch BLUEY and no, we don’t have kids.)
We’ve also been watching a couple of favorite movies, like THE EMPEROR’S NEW GROOVE and NATIONAL TREASURE (1 and 2). We also watched Order of the Phoenix because my BFF’s daughter finished the book and hadn’t seen the movie yet.
Loving
I love when Corey goes out of town because I get to eat SUSHI!!!
For those of you who don’t know, Corey’s deathly allergic, and I mean deathly, to shellfish. He’s so allergic that he’ll have an anaphylactic reaction if I’ve eaten it and breathed on him or if he walks into a restaurant or grocery store with shellfish. Needless to say, I only get to eat sushi or shellfish when Corey’s away for at least 24 hours. Have I mentioned that shellfish is my favorite?
Wanting
I want to make some brownies or chocolate chip cookies. I’ve been in the mood to bake but haven’t really given in yet.
I’ve been feeling under the weather this week with a cold or the flu. Fortunately, I can tell I’m getting better so, hopefully, I’ll be good as new in a day or so.
Blogging
I had a really good blogging week, even though I accidentally closed my comments on my Mini Reviews. I still have a couple of yearend posts scheduled to drop this coming week.
I’m still in the middle of rereading THE STAR SCROLL by Melanie Rawn, and I made a little bit of progress on the BALLAD OF SONGBIRDS AND SNAKES audiobook.
Listening
I honestly haven’t listened to much music this week because I’ve been trying to get all my end of year posts scheduled. I’ve listened to the GAME OF THRONES opening sequence a lot thanks to bingeing it with Corey so I thought I’d share it just in case you haven’t heard it.
Watching
Corey and I finished bingeing GAME OF THRONES on Friday. What a crazy ride! I loved the world building, character development, and political intrigue. My three favorite characters were Tyrion Lannister, Jon Snow, and Arya Stark. I hated watching all the animal deaths and I think a lot of the nudity wasn’t necessary. As far as the last season goes, I can understand why fans hated it as much as they did. I didn’t like everything that happened, such as View Spoiler » Jon getting the raw end of the deal for doing what was necessary « Hide Spoiler, but I thought it was a fitting end to the series.
Loving
I love Super Mario Bros. Wonder. Corey gave it to me for Christmas and I’ve really enjoyed playing it this week.
Wanting
I want to dust and reorganize my bookshelves this week. I just need to muster up the energy.
Needing
I need to figure out how to spend my time. When I’m idle, SAD grips me stronger. As long as I have something to do (and actually do it) or someone to spend time with, then I can usually stave off the seasonal depression.
I’m feeling hopeful. I wrote an update on the last 8 months earlier this week. The Reader’s Digest version is: my health is much better and I’ve been busy helping a friend in need.
Now that things have slowed down a bit, I want to start reading and blogging again. I miss the community a lot. Please bear with me while I get back into the swing of things, especially visiting and commenting on other blogs.
I finished rereading DRAGON PRINCE by Melanie Rawn this week. I then started the second book in the trilogy, THE STAR SCROLL.
I’m also listening to the audiobook of THE BALLAD OF SONGBIRDS AND SNAKES. I committed the cardinal sin of seeing the movie in November before reading the book and need to remedy that.
Listening
As I stated last year, I’m not a huge fan of Christmas music. However, I was introduced to an amazing number at my friend’s band concert. It’s called “Minor Alterations: Christmas through the Looking Glass.” I hope you enjoy it!
Watching
Right now, Corey and I are bingeing GAME OF THRONES. It’s our first time watching it. We recently finished season 5 and started season 6 on Friday. We’re quite hooked.
Corey also introduced me to ARCHER earlier this year. It’s been one of his favorites. We watched the series finale this week. It was a good one. We’re both sad it’s ended, though.
Loving
I love my IRL book club’s December meeting. I look forward to it every year. It’s so much fun because a lot of the stragglers come and we share treats and do a book exchange. This year’s was especially fun because I hadn’t been to a book club meeting since September. I’ll be posting about it in more detail this coming week.
I also love that Corey made sure I knew about the Wasatch Back Alpacas Christmas event so I could go feed and pet some alpacas. As many know, alpacas and llamas are two of my most favorite animals!
Wanting
I want to wish a merry Christmas to those who celebrate! Happy holidays to all! And, have a fun and safe New Year’s celebration this coming week.
Needing
I need to get my end of year posts ready for this upcoming week. It’s one of my favorite times of year to blog.
I’m finally starting to feel more like myself again. I thought I was ready to blog in February. However, due to some lingering symptoms from the antibiotics I was taking, I just didn’t feel up to doing much. Fortunately, I no longer need to take the antibiotics and I’m feeling less nauseated, dizzy, and headachy.
Sorry I didn’t comment on everyone’s posts last time. I really want to read and comment on other blogs. I’m just trying to get back in the habit now that I’m feeling better. Please bear with me.
Blogging
I haven’t blogged since February 5 so nothing to report.
Reading
I finally read something this past week! I read THE IT GIRL by Ruth Ware and I’ll be posting my review tomorrow. I’m going to start reading THE LAST ANNIVERSARY by Liane Moriarty some time today.
I also finally finished listening to the ECLIPSE audiobook. I started listening to it last November. However, since I usually listen to audiobooks in my car and I didn’t really get out for while, it took me a while to finish.
Listening
I honestly haven’t listened to a lot of music this week because I focused on listening to the ECLIPSE audiobook. I did, however, listen to “Grace Kelly.” I first listened to the chorus sung by Ryan Reynolds and Will Ferrell. Afterward, I listened to the original full song by MIKA because I’d never heard it before.
Watching
Corey and I are currently watching THE LAST OF US on HBO Max. We’re really enjoying the premise and characters. We also love the actors. We have a joke that Pedro Pascal likes to be in roles where he has to protect an orphan and help get them to wherever they need to go. LOL.
We’re also currently watching season 3 of STAR TREK: PICARD on Paramount+ and we love it so far. It’s fun to see the crew from The Next Generation in their different roles. I’m really excited to see where this season takes us!
We finally binged WEDNESDAY on Netflix. It was amazing! Jenna Ortega was perfect as Wednesday. I also loved her roommate at Nevermore. I also didn’t realize how tall Gwendolyn Christie is! We can’t wait for season 2.
We also saw the new Ant-Man movie, ANT-MAN AND THE WASP: QUANTUMANIA a couple of weeks ago when it first came out. I really enjoyed it despite its plot holes, which I didn’t notice while watching. Corey didn’t like it very much. He had way too many questions because of its plot holes. My favorite part was the second end credits scene, lol. If you’ve seen it, you can probably guess why.
I started bingeing THE VAMPIRE DIARIES this past week. I’ve always wanted to watch the series. I like it so far. I’m a couple of episodes into the second season. I really love the exploration of vampiric and supernatural lore. The only thing I could do without is the stupid love triangle. Because I’m required by love triangle law to pick a team *rolls eyes*, I guess I’m Team Damon. I love his character and I love that he’s portrayed by Ian Somerhalder.
Loving
I love The Fast and the Furious movie series. It’s one of my favorites, aka guilty pleasures. I know they’re way over-the-top and unbelievable, but I still love them, especially once they turned into heist movies.
The newest movie comes out in May and it looks like all the characters are returning for this one, even Brian (Paul Walker’s character). I’m very curious how they’re going to pull that off since Walker died nearly 10 years ago. One of my best friends loves the movies too so we started rewatching all the movies.
Wanting
I want the two new TWILIGHT books announced by Stephenie Meyer in February to come out sooner rather than later. I’m really excited she wants to focus on characters other than the Cullens and wolves. I can’t wait to see what comes of this announcement. I also hope this means Meyer will finally return to THE HOST world since she originally planned to make it a trilogy.
Needing
I need to get some of my crocheting and knitting projects finished. My friend and I are opening an Etsy store. We both love making amigurumi (crocheted stuffed toys), afghans, beanies, and other things. We’ve always wanted to see if we can make money selling them on Etsy so we’re going to try. I’ll share a link to the store when it’s officially open.
I’m feeling thankful. January was a tough month for me. Even though we figured out most of my health issues and nothing significant really happened, my depression reared its ugly head, accompanied by a healthy dose of anhedonia. I didn’t feel like doing anything I normally loved doing–blogging, reading, journaling, building LEGO, drawing, etc. Besides spending time with Corey and a few of my friends, the only thing I seemed to feel like doing was play my Switch … so I did.
I met with Doug, my therapist, this past week and we discussed how I was doing and feeling. He told me not to get down on myself. People recently done with Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) often go through the same thing I did. He said that when people feel in control of their urges, which happens after they graduate from therapy, they stop using their skills. At first it doesn’t seem like a big deal. As time goes on, however, we settle into our old patterns and behaviors. And, if left unchecked, we find ourself in crisis once again.
Fortunately, I didn’t let it get that far. I realized something was off and sought help. Now, I just need to keep using my skills, at least the ones I stopped using. (That “just” makes it sound so simple, lol.) Anyway, I wasn’t challenging my negative thoughts and urges. Instead of giving in to them, it’s much more effective to use Opposite Action and do the things I know help keep me in a good headspace, even when I don’t want to. So… here I am blogging again.
Blogging
I haven’t blogged since January 4 so nothing to report.
Reading
I’m hoping to start reading MY GRANDMOTHER ASKED ME TO TELL YOU SHE’S SORRY by Frederik Backman in the next couple of days. It was my IRL book club’s pick for January.
Listening
I’ve been listening to my Faves playlist a lot this past week. One of the songs I always enjoy listening to is “Hearing Damage” by Thom Yorke.
Watching
Corey and I finished watching (rewatching for him) DEXTER this past week. I loved it. I loved the characters, the story, the relationships, and exploring Dexter’s nature.
We also watched DEXTER: NEW BLOOD this week (his first time too). I liked it, just not as much as the original series. I liked who Dexter’s new Dark Passenger took the form of and the overarching theme of the 10 episodes. We were very disappointed with the ending because it felt out of character for Dexter. I also felt like the ending undid all of Dexter’s growth in season 8 of the original series.
I really liked the actors in both. I think they all did a phenomenal job.
Loving
I really love my friends. I love spending time with them and I love being supportive. I hope I can always be someone they can count on to help them when they’re dealing with hard things.
Wanting
I want to learn how to build websites and blogs. I know a little html and css. I also know how to customize most WordPress themes. I want to learn how to build them from scratch, though. I really love working on my blog and I think out of all my options, building websites and blogs would make me the happiest.
Needing
I need to figure out what to do in regards to school. I don’t think school will help me reach my building websites and blogs goal. Besides, I’ve been in school for 8.5 years and I have 103 credits in random subjects because of the lack of direction in my life. I’m no closer to getting my Bachelor’s than I was when I received my Associate’s back in 1999. I made an appointment with a general advisor for tomorrow to talk about my options. Maybe we can piecemeal a degree together so I can finally graduate.