Sunday News #38

Sunday Post and Sunday Salon are blog news memes hosted at Caffeinated Reviewer and Reader Buzz, respectively. It’s a chance to share news, recap the past week on your blog, and showcase books and other things.
Feeling

I’ve been feeling blah this week. I haven’t felt well physically or mentally. I definitely haven’t felt like blogging or reading. Corey thinks the trauma I’m working through in my PTSD therapy is not only taking its toll on my mental health, but my physical health as well. It has been proven that our bodies often react physically to extreme stress and mine is acting in kind. I’ve been experiencing gastrointestinal discomfort, nausea, lack of appetite, cravings for sugar and carbs, dizziness, extreme fatigue, a facial rash, headaches, sore throat, sinus congestion, and body aches. It sounds like I have a cold, the flu, COVID, or something else, but I don’t. The symptoms come and go.

Blogging

Even though I didn’t feel like blogging much this week, I did still post a few things. This week on the blog:

I’m sorry I haven’t responded to the comments on my posts yet. And, I’m even more sorry I haven’t commented on very many blogs this week. I probably won’t try to catch up on every post I missed as that would take days, but I am planning on spending some time today responding to the comments on my blog and commenting on other Sunday Posts. Thank you, all, for continuing to comment on my blog even though I’ve been absent.

Reading

I finished listening to the HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS audiobook. I loved every minute of it. It really helped this week when I was feeling distraught mentally and physically.

I haven’t read or even tried to read anything else. I really do hope I’ll feel like reading something this week. I may put WHERE THE CRAWDADS SING down, even though I’m enjoying the story. Maybe, I’ll keep reading one chapter a day and then turn my focus on something more light-hearted like LOVE ON THE BRAIN by Ali Hazelwood.

I learned in DBT that life is full of dialectics, or two opposing truths. In this case, the two opposing truths are: 1) I don’t agree with JKR’s stance regarding trans people, and 2) I still love Harry Potter.

Listening

Since I haven’t been in the mood to read this week, I watched a few movies. I’m embarrassed about sharing this, especially since I grew up in a very sexually conservative religion and watching movies with nudity or that center around sex is frowned upon. If my family or some of my IRL friends read this, they’d probably be very disappointed in or shocked at my choices.

I’m also embarrassed because of the negativity associated with the Fifty Shades franchise because of its connection with and misrepresentation of BDSM. (At least that’s what I’ve read.) Still, I watched the trilogy this week because I was curious. I’m a huge fan of the Twilight Saga and I wanted to see what EL James took from Stephenie Meyer’s series to get FIFTY SHADES OF GREY. I don’t feel the need to read the books, but I was pleasantly surprised by how much I enjoyed the movies.

The only reason I’m sharing this is one of the songs from the second movie, FIFTY SHADES DARKER, really captured my attention. It’s a cover of “The Scientist,” which is one of my favorite songs. I like Coldplay’s version better, but I really enjoyed this rendition too. This version is sung by Corinne Bailey Rae.

Watching

As I already said, I watched the Fifty Shades trilogy. I thought Jamie Dornan and Dakota Johnson were very believable in their roles. I also thought they had great chemistry. And, as I said above, I was pleasantly surprised by how much I enjoyed the stories.

I also broke down and watched the movie adaptation of WHERE THE CRAWDADS SING. I was going to wait until I finished reading the book, but I decided to watch the movie to help motivate me. I really enjoyed the movie and I’m more excited to read the book now if I can just get over this mental slump I’m in.

Loving

Even though I missed participating in the community this week, I loved taking a bit of a break. It was very restorative and I hope it has renewed my interest in reading, blogging, and commenting.

Wanting Wishing

I wish I could go back to being oblivious in regards to my religion. I was happy in my ignorance. Now that I’ve opened my eyes, I feel constant shame and guilt for turning my back on how I grew up and what I used to believe. I’m trying to find a middle ground. It has been really difficult, though, because everything seems so black and white in religion.

Needing

I need to quit putting so much pressure on myself. I’m good the way I am. It’s okay if I’m in the middle of a faith crisis. It’s okay if I do things my friends and family wouldn’t do. It’s okay to become someone different than I expected. It’s okay not to have all the answers. I still have worth.

How was your week? Anything exciting happen?

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Hi, I'm Jenni. I’m an eclectic reader. I mostly read fiction and I favor fantasy, science fiction, historical fiction, mystery, thrillers, and romance. The more kissing in a book the better!
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  1. Juli @ A Universe in Words
    Juli @ A Universe in Words says:

    When I started really working on things with my therapist it definitely had a physical effect, so I imagine if you’re really getting into your trauma then it could absolutely affect your body as well! I hope you feel better soon! And I’m with you on that HP footnote, I feel the exact same way! I hope you have a good start to the week 🙂
    Juli @ A Universe in Words

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    • Jenni Elyse
      Jenni Elyse says:

      That’s fantastic! I think I would’ve be so embarrassed if it weren’t for my upbringing. I’m learning to be okay with choices even if the people around me don’t agree. 😀

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  2. Terrie @ Bookshelf Journeys
    Terrie @ Bookshelf Journeys says:

    I think we all go through life cycles – energy to pursue interests or not, wanting to spend time with friends or not, etc. It’s normal and healthy to listen to your body and heart. Hopefully you’ll find your mojo again and have the energy/interest to read and blog again. We’ll be here.
    Hope you have a great week and find time to enjoy a good book.
    Terrie @ Bookshelf Journeys
    https://www.bookshelfjourneys.com/post/sunday-post-18

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  3. Louise Hallett
    Louise Hallett says:

    I get a lot of those gastrointestinal symptoms when I’m anxious and stressed, so I’m not surprised you aren’t feeling too good. I hope things improve for you soon. I think we’ve all been there in being too overwhelmed with life to blog hop and comment, I’ll forgive you if you forgive me!
    Be kind to yourself – you are an amazing person!

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    • Jenni Elyse
      Jenni Elyse says:

      Thanks, Louise! 😀 I really appreciate it and I definitely forgive you if you can’t always comment. I know I need to do the same for myself. I think we’re always our own harshest critics.

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  4. Greg
    Greg says:

    Stress definitely takes a toll, noquestion. Plus life changes and all that. Sounds like you have a lot going on- go easy on yourself. I’m finding even the weather affects my mood. I’m eating unhealthy things because my body apparently is feeling like oh it’s fall stock up or something. 🙂

    Religion is tough. I have faith but I’m constantly reading books that challenge this or that element of faith- like the tug of war between strict or literal interpretaions and more scholarly or contextual interpretations. It’s a balancing act. 🙂 I tell myself- like you said- I don’t have all the answers but I do have my faith, and the central part of it remains intact even if I’ll never know (at least i this life) whether such and such doctrine is this or that…

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    • Jenni Elyse
      Jenni Elyse says:

      Thanks, Greg! 😀 I appreciate it. I think the weather definitely affects my mood and eating habits. I seem to crave more sweets this time of year because of all the holidays.

      I said faith because of my particular religion. I do actually have faith, a lot of it. I still believe in God and I still believe in Christ and that through him I can be saved. I just have issues with the organization part of the religion I grew up in. I don’t think my religion is the one true religion anymore. I think there’s truth in all beliefs. I personally don’t think things are as black and white as many members of my church think they are. I don’t think I’ll go to Hell for watching R-rated movies or movies/tv shows containing nudity, voting in support of equal rights for the LGBTQ+ community, or for wearing clothes that don’t have sleeves or aren’t long enough to cover my kneecaps. I don’t think homosexuality is a sin. I think God wants us to love each other, even if it’s in a same-sex relationship. I don’t think sex is bad or that people should shy away from talking about it. (I was taught to believe all these things.) And, if I’m wrong, I think I can still be saved because of Christ.

      Thanks for your words on religion, faith, and belief. 💜

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      • Greg
        Greg says:

        I agree with you. I feel the same way about a lot of that. I’ve been really exploring a lot of this lately as well. My mom is very evangelical and growing up in the Midwest a lot of folks are. I sort of was too by default and while my faith is still there, I have begun questioning some of the ways evangelicals say they have the ANSWER and everyone else is… just wrong 🙂 And of course I don’t mean to generalize all evangelicals. Just my view. I’m pretty live and let live and don’t like how our country is becoming a huge culture war…

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        • Jenni Elyse
          Jenni Elyse says:

          Yes! I also hate that the US is turning into a culture war. I hate that it’s so divided and that our democracy is on the brink of destruction because of the “we’re the only ones with the right answer” mentality.

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    • Jenni Elyse
      Jenni Elyse says:

      I apologize if you do believe the opposite of what I just said. I’m good with people having different beliefs than my own. I was just trying to say all the things I no longer believe that I grew up believing. I hope that makes sense.

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  5. Meezan
    Meezan says:

    That’s great you posted a few times during the week even though you weren’t necessarily feeling up to it. When my best friend passed away in 2010 I saw a counselor a few times to work though how I was feeling. The biggest lesson I learned from my counselor was not to judge how I feel. I feel a certain way, whether it’s happy, sad, or whatever and it is simply that – how I feel. It’s so important to not place judgement on how I feel. I wouldn’t do that to others, so I shouldn’t do it to myself either. That one lesson has gotten me through the past 12 years. Try to go easy on yourself. Do what you can when you can. I enjoy hearing from you on my blog and I enjoy reading your posts, but if you need to take a break from any of that at anytime, it’s more than okay. 🙂

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    • Jenni Elyse
      Jenni Elyse says:

      Thanks, Meezan! 😀 That’s very sound advice you learned from your therapist. It’s also something I learned in DBT and I’m still practicing it. Sometimes I do better with it than other times and that’s okay. 😀 I’m glad it has helped you for the past 12 years.

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  6. Margaret
    Margaret says:

    You are putting a lot of pressure on yourself; I hope you can come to some kind of acceptance with your religion and your personal relationship with it. I’m glad you’re taking the time to enjoy books and films that make you feel calmer or happier. I hope you feel better mentally and physically! And for crying out loud, don’t pressure yourself to comment on our comments or on all our posts. Much too stressful! xoxo

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    • Jenni Elyse
      Jenni Elyse says:

      Thanks, Margaret! 😀 I always appreciate your perspective and words of wisdom. I have decided not to go back and comment on all the posts for everyone that I missed. I’m only going to comment on a few. (Well, I did comment on all yours, but that’s because I wanted to get caught up on what you’ve been up to last week.)

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  7. Nicci @The Lady Never
    Nicci @The Lady Never says:

    No shame in enjoying books and movies that don’t necessarily chime with what you believe or how you live… Few things are clear-cut or straightforward… Life is full of nuance and finding balance is definitely key. I wish you all the luck in the world in finding yours.

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  8. Jodie
    Jodie says:

    I’m sorry you’re feeling out of sorts and hope you feel more like yourself soon. Be kind to yourself. I enjoyed the reading Grey years ago but I haven’t seen the movies yet.

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    • Jenni Elyse
      Jenni Elyse says:

      Thanks, Jodie! 😀 I know I shouldn’t feel embarrassed about FSoG. I’m really trying not to. I think it’s just my upbringing. I’m glad you enjoyed the books.

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  9. Emily @Budget Tales Book Blog
    Emily @Budget Tales Book Blog says:

    Bless you. I hope you start to feel better soon.

    Religion is a tough one. I believe in God, but don’t go to Church.

    I will be honest and say that I enjoyed The Fifty Shades books. I liked the storyline. The sex stuff was a bit much so I would never watch the films. When I read a book I find it hard to picture what goes on and in this case I would rather it remain that way!

    I hope you have a better week this week.

    Emily @ Budget Tales Book Blog

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    • Jenni Elyse
      Jenni Elyse says:

      Thanks, Emily! 😀 I totally understand what you’re saying about not wanting to see what’s written. I also don’t picture what I read very well. I love movies because they help bring things to life. The sex was excessive in the movies as well. That part was okay, but I enjoyed the actual story of love, change, and redemption.

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  10. Lindsey @ Lindsey Reads
    Lindsey @ Lindsey Reads says:

    Sorry to hear you had a tough week – hope this one is already better! And it’s definitely ok to take a break from blogging and commenting sometimes, take all the time you need! I also watched the Crawdads movie last week and really enjoyed it. I still need to finish watching the 50 shades movies, I only watched the first one.

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    • Jenni Elyse
      Jenni Elyse says:

      Thanks, Lindsey! 😀 The Crawdads movie is so good. I’m excited to read the book at some point. I think I just need to be in the mood for it. I’m much more amenable to movies than I am to books, lol. If you do watch the other two movies in FSoG, I hope you like them.

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  11. Anne@HeadFullofBooks
    Anne@HeadFullofBooks says:

    Golly. Your symptoms do not sound good. Three things that may help: 1. breathe deeply and fully. Do it again! And Again. Get lots of oxygen. 2. Drink lots of water. Swim, bathe, or soak will help, too. You get oxygen through your skin that way. 3. Take walks. Try to walk under trees and in wooded areas if possible. I suspect it has a calming effect due to, you guessed it, oxygen. Take care.

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    • Jenni Elyse
      Jenni Elyse says:

      Thank you for the suggestions, Anne! 😀 I’ll definitely try some of these things. I have found listening to soothing music and soaking in the bathtub seems to help a little bit too.

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  12. Lover of Romance
    Lover of Romance says:

    I am definitely of the belief that our mental and emotional health will affect our physical health. It’s why anxiety can trigger high blood pressure for example or affect your weight and so on. I do love the Fifty Shades movies. The BDSM is not represented at all very well, but they did a great job with the adaptations. I feel you though, not many people in my personal life mostly work people know about my blog and reading tastes. I still believe in the faith, I just don’t think reading romance and intimacy is bad.

    I hope you have a great week!

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    • Jenni Elyse
      Jenni Elyse says:

      Yes, very true about anxiety triggering high blood pressure or affecting weight. I deal with both of those. LOL.

      I like your take on faith, reading romance, and intimacy. My family is very conservative regarding sex and intimacy as many other members of Utah’s dominant religion are. I think the culture here surrounding sex is very repressive and not part of actual doctrine (other than no sex outside of marriage). This week I came to an understanding of my beliefs in many aspects regarding my faith/religion. I’ve decided it’s okay to have different views/beliefs. I may never have “all” the rights and privileges of “faithful” members because of some of my views/choices as I do support some groups that could be considered contrary to doctrine AND I think that’s okay. I still feel worthy in the sight of God.

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  13. Rachel @Waves of Fiction
    Rachel @Waves of Fiction says:

    I’m sorry you haven’t been feeling well and I hope working through your PTSD will get easier in time! I’m happy that you at least had books and entertainment to help get you though.

    I personally enjoyed the Fifty Shades series (books) I only watched the first movie, but I thought they did a good job. I’ve been meaning to watch the rest of the movies. My sister-in-law found out I read the books (years ago) and warned me that I could get into trouble with our religion because they viewed reading books like that like watching porn. I didn’t tell her I read the books, she found out by snooping on my Goodreads account. I blocked her of course, but I was ticked. I don’t share my reading tastes or the fact that I blog with anyone from my religion. My husband, sister and daughter know I blog, and they enjoy reading too, but no one else from my family or religion knows. At least, I hope not! I don’t feel bad about what I read I just don’t care to open myself up to judgment from others.

    Hope you are having a better week!

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    • Jenni Elyse
      Jenni Elyse says:

      Thank you, Rachel! 😀 I really appreciate it.

      I totally get where you’re coming from. FSoG would be considered pornography in my religion as well and I’m sure many of my family, friends, and neighbors would be disappointed in my choice to watch the movies or read books with explicit sex in them. I think the culture surrounding sex and intimacy in my religion is very repressive and not part of actual doctrine. This week I came to an understanding of my beliefs in many aspects regarding my faith/religion. I’ve decided it’s okay to have different views/beliefs. I may never have “all” the rights and privileges of “faithful” members because of some of my views/choices as I do support some groups that could be considered contrary to doctrine AND I think that’s okay. I still feel worthy in the sight of God.

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  14. Literary Feline
    Literary Feline says:

    I hope you had a better week this past week. I am no stranger to gastrointestinal issues either. My mental health problems all too often manifest in physical ways too unfortunately.

    Faith/religion can be so complicated. I hope you find the balance you are looking for.

    I love the Harry Potter books. I haven’t read WHERE THE CRAWDADS SING and don’t know if I will, but I would like to see the movie. I am glad to hear you liked it. I read the first two Fifty Shade books and they weren’t for me–but not because of the erotic content. I haven’t seen the movies. Maybe someday.

    Have a great week!

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    • Jenni Elyse
      Jenni Elyse says:

      Thank you! I appreciate it so much! 😀

      My week was okay. I’m not feeling much like blogging or reading right now so I haven’t posted anything for almost a week. I’m hoping to be back in the swing of things soon.

      I get what you mean about the FSoG. The books aren’t for me either. The movies are more doable for me because the abuse (I think that’s the consensus since it misrepresents BDSM based on things I’ve read about the books) takes a back seat to the love story.

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