Sunday News #46

Sunday Post and Sunday Salon are blog news memes hosted at Caffeinated Reviewer and Reader Buzz, respectively. It’s a chance to share news, recap the past week on your blog, and showcase books and other things.
Feeling

I’m feeling thankful. January was a tough month for me. Even though we figured out most of my health issues and nothing significant really happened, my depression reared its ugly head, accompanied by a healthy dose of anhedonia. I didn’t feel like doing anything I normally loved doing–blogging, reading, journaling, building LEGO, drawing, etc. Besides spending time with Corey and a few of my friends, the only thing I seemed to feel like doing was play my Switch … so I did.

I met with Doug, my therapist, this past week and we discussed how I was doing and feeling. He told me not to get down on myself. People recently done with Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) often go through the same thing I did. He said that when people feel in control of their urges, which happens after they graduate from therapy, they stop using their skills. At first it doesn’t seem like a big deal. As time goes on, however, we settle into our old patterns and behaviors. And, if left unchecked, we find ourself in crisis once again.

Fortunately, I didn’t let it get that far. I realized something was off and sought help. Now, I just need to keep using my skills, at least the ones I stopped using. (That “just” makes it sound so simple, lol.) Anyway, I wasn’t challenging my negative thoughts and urges. Instead of giving in to them, it’s much more effective to use Opposite Action and do the things I know help keep me in a good headspace, even when I don’t want to. So… here I am blogging again.

Blogging

I haven’t blogged since January 4 so nothing to report.

Reading

I’m hoping to start reading MY GRANDMOTHER ASKED ME TO TELL YOU SHE’S SORRY by Frederik Backman in the next couple of days. It was my IRL book club’s pick for January.

Listening

I’ve been listening to my Faves playlist a lot this past week. One of the songs I always enjoy listening to is “Hearing Damage” by Thom Yorke.

Watching

Corey and I finished watching (rewatching for him) DEXTER this past week. I loved it. I loved the characters, the story, the relationships, and exploring Dexter’s nature.

We also watched DEXTER: NEW BLOOD this week (his first time too). I liked it, just not as much as the original series. I liked who Dexter’s new Dark Passenger took the form of and the overarching theme of the 10 episodes. We were very disappointed with the ending because it felt out of character for Dexter. I also felt like the ending undid all of Dexter’s growth in season 8 of the original series.

I really liked the actors in both. I think they all did a phenomenal job.

Loving

I really love my friends. I love spending time with them and I love being supportive. I hope I can always be someone they can count on to help them when they’re dealing with hard things.

Wanting

I want to learn how to build websites and blogs. I know a little html and css. I also know how to customize most WordPress themes. I want to learn how to build them from scratch, though. I really love working on my blog and I think out of all my options, building websites and blogs would make me the happiest.

Needing

I need to figure out what to do in regards to school. I don’t think school will help me reach my building websites and blogs goal. Besides, I’ve been in school for 8.5 years and I have 103 credits in random subjects because of the lack of direction in my life. I’m no closer to getting my Bachelor’s than I was when I received my Associate’s back in 1999. I made an appointment with a general advisor for tomorrow to talk about my options. Maybe we can piecemeal a degree together so I can finally graduate.

How was your week? Anything exciting happen?

About Jenni Elyse


Hi, I'm Jenni. I’m an eclectic reader. I mostly read fiction and I favor fantasy, science fiction, historical fiction, mystery, thrillers, and romance. The more kissing in a book the better!
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    • Jenni Elyse
      Jenni Elyse says:

      Thanks, Tanya! 😀 I used to not be self-aware. Many years of therapy has taught me to act opposite of the urges that accompany my depression and anxiety. In that sense, being self-aware’s a blessing and a curse, lol. I can no longer give in to my urge to wallow in my depression. Knowing that helps me be more productive, helping me overcome the symptoms of my depression and anxiety.

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  1. Suey
    Suey says:

    Glad you are back to blogging! And I agree you need to figure out how to make your schooling fit to your love of website building. That would be so awesome!

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    • Jenni Elyse
      Jenni Elyse says:

      Thanks, Suey! Obviously, I’m still having issues posting regularly and reading anything. Although, I do feel a small desire to read something. That’s something! 😀

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  2. Literary Feline
    Literary Feline says:

    It is good to see you posting again. I hope things are going well for you this week. I think Doug’s words apply to so many different scenarios and it’s so true. I need to remember that myself. It’s all too easy to be hard on ourselves too. I’m good at that unfortunately.

    Hopefully you and the college advisor can come up with a plan. I sometimes think about going back to school and taking a couple of classes. I always have an excuse not to though. Maybe someday!

    I hope you have a great week!

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    • Jenni Elyse
      Jenni Elyse says:

      Thanks! 😀 I’m still having trouble posting regularly. Hopefully, I can get back in the habit. I agree about Doug’s words applying to so many different scenarios.

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