It’s the time of year when Seasonal Affective Disorder looms over me and makes me dread the next four months. I actually love the cold. It means herbal tea, hot chocolate, heater tents, curling up in blankets, and wearing sweaters. You might recognize most of these as some of my Self-Management Strategies in my Suicide Safety Plan. I chose them for a reason; I love how they make me feel. ❤️
What I don’t like is the time change in November and the added darkness until the winter solstice. It always feels so late so early in the day. I feel very demotivated, more so than normal. I feel like I should always be in bed even though I’m a night owl. It’s apt that the culprit is Seasonal Affective Disorder or SAD. It’s very common and affects many people who live far from the equator. There’s also a rarer form that affects people in the summer.
With preparation, I hope to minimize Seasonal Affective Disorder from affecting me, but it seems to surprise me every year. For example, this year I was extremely tired on Friday and I pretty much slept the entire weekend until Tuesday. I’m pretty sure the stress of the election, Daylight Saving Time ending, and Seasonal Affective Disorder starting all had something to do with it. As soon as I woke up Tuesday morning, it was like I woke up from a long sleep. I still feel sluggish, but not as sluggish as last year because I’m taking 10,000 IU Vitamin D each day (per doctor’s orders). I also have a therapy light coming, which I’m excited to see if it helps.