I’ve shared this before and I want to share it again. I wrote this during a really low point in my life. I like to read it every now and then to help me remember to “just keep swimming,” even though it’s hard and I don’t want to sometimes.
I also made a minor adjustment using my DBT skills. I changed the “but” in the last stanza to an uppercase, underlined “and.” I actually like it better.
Why do I keep doing this?
I am nothing.
I try and try and try, never following through, never succeeding.
I’m sucked into the depths of despair.
I feel nothing.
I am lost.
I am drifting in a tide of uncertainties.
I want to be happy.
I want to be healthy.
I want more in life.
I am impassioned.
I am defiant.
I fight back.
I try again and again and again, until I succeed.
The Refiner’s fire is agonizing.
AND, I wait for the ashes.
The ashes of rebirth.
I will rise.
I will succeed.
I will be reborn into a beautiful, fiery phoenix.