When I first posted what it’s like living with depression, I had recently seen my psychiatrist and he put me on a new medication to replace the $1200/month one. It’s similar to it but less expensive. Unfortunately, it also have a nasty side effect of making me feel incredibly anxious and jittery so I also have to take another medication to prevent those effects. 🙄
Fortunately, the new medication plus one have been working and I’ve been feeling a lot better. Almost normal … almost. 😉 I’ve felt like I can manage my emotions a ton better. That is, until I started taking an antibiotic for an upper respiratory infection from Hell I’ve had this past week and a half. I think the antibiotic may be reacting or interfering with my anti-depressant and -anxiety medication because I have felt extremely agitated (anxious), jittery, depressed, and tired over the last five days. No amount of self-care, except spending time with loved ones and friends and a blessing from my Bishop has kept these feelings at bay. I nearly checked myself into to the ER because I wasn’t sure what I was going to do or what I was capable of.
Medication is great, but it’s not a cure all. It has limits and I’ve reached those limits many times. Don’t get me wrong. I wouldn’t be here without medication. I’m very grateful for it. I’m grateful for modern science and its advances.
Only a few more days with this antibiotic and then hopefully, all will go back to the way it was before I started taking it.