I decided to take a couple of my friends’ advice and start keeping a “free write” journal to help me find my creativity.  Corey thinks this is pretty sound advice because he was required to write at least three pages a day to help get his creative juices stirring when he was in graphic-design school.  I figure if he had to do it and he wasn’t even trying to be a writer, I should do it too. ;) I bought a cheap, purple spiral notebook to use.  It’s also college ruled because I hate writing on wide rule paper.  I know I’m strange and kind of OCD, and you probably didn’t need to know the color or the rule of my notebook, but that’s beside the point. ;)

Anyway, I wrote my first entry today.  After doing some research about free writing online, I decided to write for a specific amount of time rather than a specific number of pages.  I chose ten minutes.  Even though you may not be interested in what I wrote, I thought I’d post it on my blog because it’s a momentous occasion; I’m actually starting something to help me rather than putting it off like I normally do.  (It comes with the territory of being the queen of procrastinators.)

I hate writing in spiral notebooks  They’re so uncomfortable  But not just for lefties at least that’s what I’ve come to realize  Writing without punctuation is hard for my perfectionist mind  I want to put periods and commas where they belong  Sheesh writing for ten minutes is going to be difficult because my hand is cramping  This is kind of fun writing about nothing  Corey keeps saying frog to Lauren  I’m not sure if I’m doing my free writing correctly  Froyo’s going to move in about a month  I’m excited because I can give my two week notice at Dentrix soon thereafter  PAIN my hand is killing me  I’m too used to typing and not writing  I used to love writing but then I got lazy  how can I keep writing with the pain I’m experiencing  It’s so intense  Today’s Brittany’s birthday  My mind is blank now other than the intense pain in my hand  Am I holding my pencil wrong or too tightly  Is that why my hand hurts  What can I do to strenghthen the muscles in my hand  Is this 10 minutes almost up  My hand needs to relax

It’s kind of weird to see where my mind goes when I’m not trying to think of anything in particular.  Obviously, pain is a huge issue for me. :| I also didn’t realize I spelled strengthen wrong until I was rereading my thoughts and typing them out.  I must have been in the zone.  Hopefully, that’s a good sign since I’m usually very OCD about spelling and punctuation.

I hope this helps bring back my creativity.  If anything, it might be interesting to see if I get any real insights into my true person.