I still don’t have all the pictures I want to show you from the Twilight movie premiere. Hopefully, I’ll have the pictures by tomorrow. ;)
I just received this e-mail from Summit Entertainment, the company that made Twilight. I’m so excited! :D Hopefully, I don’t cry too much. (If you’ve never read New Moon, you won’t understand.)
First, yes, I did see Twilight. However, that’s another story and I’ll elaborate in another post when I’ve gathered the pictures I want to show you.
Second, and more importantly, I reread my post on Wednesday and realized I did it again! I started to focus on the bad. I guess that’s human nature, isn’t it? Yes, I’m still frustrated, anxious, and depressed. However, even though I feel like that, I know I have a good life. I also know I’m not the only one going through something difficult. I know I have friends and family members going through their own tough times and I’m sure they’re feeling similarly to or the same way I did/do. They may even be feeling it more than me because they may be going through even tougher times than me. I’m going to recommit to looking at the positive and being grateful for what I have. It’s funny that this realization came in the face of the toughest adversity Corey and I have faced with moving.
We’ve been working with two banks to get our loan. The first bank is waiting for something to happen because of the changes in their regulations, which may end up taking a while. We were really pushing hard with the second bank. They were very optimistic and said they should be able to approve us. However, upon looking through our file and with the changes in their regulations over the past month, this morning they told us we were denied. This was the offer we were shooting for to help us with our move tomorrow.
Needless to say, this morning, Corey and I were very stressed and had a lot of anxiety. And to top it off, our backup plan fell through so it looked like we had no options. We started looking for other avenues. (Thank goodness for the Internet!) The best option we could find isn’t available until December 1. What to do until then?
We looked at putting our stuff in storage and staying in a hotel. We’ve even had a few friends offer to let us stay with them. We didn’t want to burden them and with our cats, it would be rather difficult. We were willing to kennel the cats if we had to, but we didn’t really want to. We kept looking for other options.
Finally, Corey and I decided to talk to our landlord and see where he was at. When I called him, I was nearly in tears. I’m not sure if that made the difference, but he was more than willing to let us stay until the 1st.
At this point, we’re still hoping that the first bank comes through by the 1st, but if not, we have somewhere to go. And, we can stay there until the first bank comes through as it may take a month or so for certain things to happen. We’re not out of the running with buying the townhome we want. And, this place that we may move to has a “rent to own” option, so it may end up working out better for us.
Anyway, there are a whole new set of frustrations that come because of what happened today, but overall, I feel good. I know most of you know I have a firm belief in God and I know He is the reason Corey and I aren’t going to be homeless tomorrow. True, things didn’t work out the way we wanted them to, but things are working out and I know they’ll continue to work out for the better because of Him. For that, I’m grateful!
Right now, I’m dealing with a lot of feelings. First, there’s frustration. :x When we started looking into buying a townhome, we were pre-approved for our loan. But, that was before the economy tanked and the real estate market started getting an overhaul. Long story short, lots of regulations have changed with a few of the banks that we’re working with so what we qualified for before based on our credit/income isn’t the same now. And, because the buying process wasn’t finished, nothing was locked in. We’re having to jump through a lot hoops now just to get the loan. (At least, this is what we’re being told.) We haven’t been disqualified yet because we keep being told to do one more thing.
Second, there’s anxiety. 8O We have to move Saturday and there are no ifs, ands, or buts about it. We’re being told that everything is moving along and we’ll be able to close no later than next week. Are we going to be homeless for a couple of days? Or, is everything going to work out just in the nick of time? I don’t know and it’s very nerve racking.
Third, there’s depression. Why does it seem that we always have to jump through hoops to make things happen? This depression doesn’t just come from our townhome purchase; there’s a lot of history and other things going on right now that support this line of thinking. Corey’s a very private person, so I don’t talk about all our problems on my blog. Just believe me; we’ve gone through a lot and we are continuing to go through a lot!
I guess the hardest thing about this is trying to find another place to live that we can afford with such short notice. However, we do have a backup plan just in case something happens and we don’t get this townhome. It’s not what we want, but it’ll do.
Thanks for letting me vent and thanks for all your support! We could use some more to help us through this next little bit. :?
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I hacked Jennifer’s blog to say thank you to everyone who wished me a happy birthday. I appreciate all the sentiment and invite you to send any and all gifts (you have them, I assume ;) ) to Save the Internet.
I will now return you to your regularly scheduled blog programming.
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I finished my blog’s new look. I decided I liked the layout of the old theme; I just wanted a change in color and stuff like that. I meshed my old theme with one I found. I’m pretty proud of myself. ;)
Updated: I changed the background because I decided the last one was too busy. On my home computer, it looked awesome. However, when I looked at it on my work computer, the background seemed to overpower everything else.